If you’re fighting with suicidality or are just recovering from a mental health episode, you’re already fighting very hard battles that no one else can see. This is just my small attempt at showing what it involves, and I struggle[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
There comes a time when all the smoke and mirrors in the world will clear. At that point, what’s left? What will you regret? Will you regret never reaching out to help someone in pain? Someone close who wanted you[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
Every single time my safety has been at risk, I’ve been in the grip of an episode. If it weren’t for the patient and thankless remonstrances of my loved ones, things may have turned out differently. If you have depression[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
I just randomly came up with a number. If I started numbering my episodes, we’d never get anywhere. Episodes are dangerous. These are usually when the impulse to act is the strongest, on any self harm or suicidal intent. This[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
Depression is particularly tricky with this paradox. I call depression a fatal illness only because of this paradox. But it gets confusing. If you’ve ever met a friend who’s depressed and contemplating ending things, you’ll also know that somehow that[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
Having two of my own, we had to decide whether, and how, to explain what depression is. It varies from child to child but communication is key. The sad thing is kids get depressed too. They need to know it’s[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
How many stories end this way? Where the lost are found and intervention is effective? Too few. But I’m not cruel enough to end Dave here, while I go on living. My doctor once told me that out of ten[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
Trigger warning. When the suicidal thoughts tend to overwhelm, the sad truth is that most of the time, it’s the half truths and the lies that have overwhelmed. But it’s not easy – it’s sometimes impossible – to counter those[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
Depression is an arrogant illness. By that I don’t mean that sufferers like me are arrogant, or that it makes us into arrogant people. Depression grips the mind and only allows it to see one reality as the only possible[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
Trigger warning still in effect… There’re so many possible reasons why suicide seems to be the only way out. Feeling like a burden is one of them. The pain. The unbearable loneliness. But being a burden usually goes hand in[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…