Have you ever heard the phrase “being lonely in the middle of a crowd”? Depression makes this feeling even more intense, and worse still – it can become self-fulfilling. It’s difficult to be social, and sometimes it’s just easier to[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
I just randomly came up with a number. If I started numbering my episodes, we’d never get anywhere. Episodes are dangerous. These are usually when the impulse to act is the strongest, on any self harm or suicidal intent. This[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
I’ve not yet had the pleasure of meeting someone with depression who can take their own advice. Somehow, advice on survival, on being positive, on not beating ourselves up with guilt… when others are depressed, and we can offer them[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
Depression is particularly tricky with this paradox. I call depression a fatal illness only because of this paradox. But it gets confusing. If you’ve ever met a friend who’s depressed and contemplating ending things, you’ll also know that somehow that[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
There isn’t a manual that dictates how someone’s recovery will look like. In the same way there’s no manual that talks about how much effort we should put in. It’s very much a balancing act. Don’t push and I won’t[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
Don’t give up giving us hope. I try not to give up because of my family. They give me hope that things will get better. We need hope, always.
The paradox of self circles around the one person we don’t think is worth any effort or time, and yet is the center of our recovery. It’s simultaneously a scream to help us figure out what is wrong, then as[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
Being alone helps my battery to recharge, but that usually comes at some risk to my safety. And don’t get me wrong – I do enjoy spending time with loved people. This is especially true when I feel safe with[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
Everyone has their own beliefs. Somehow though, we’re told there’re good beliefs and bad beliefs. In depression, however, it’s most important to have our beliefs verified. Most times, our beliefs aren’t totally well informed, and depression twists them even more.[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
Sometimes we need shortcuts just to get by. It’s even nicer when those shortcuts are made for us, and all we have to do is eat. Though of course, no one said anything about the taste. Heh.